i feel like I’m becoming such a boring person… I sit at home, eat, or work. My personality is dwindling. i can only remember when i truly got excited about something in life and expressed an emotion other than apathy. A lot of people see it as me being “chill” but a few years ago i was completely different. I force a half ass smile upon my face and repeat in my head over and over “You have so many great things in your life, you should be happy,” but why can’t i actually find that true happiness? This sucks. i just want to feel good again.